What a puddle that was. I am sorry for causing some confusion, and maybe some anxiety. I am a lot better today.
Through the BSF lecture last night, through the lesson this morning that I was reading, through encouragement and prayers of others, through the conviction of the Holy Spirit upon my heart, and the peace that God has given me . . . I feel like I am not fretting as much.
Patience is not a strong virtue in me - I only seem to lack it. I thought I was impatient in only a few minor areas - traffic, crowds, long lines, pet peeves, so forth and so on, and the list only kept getting bigger. It became more apparent to me at how I expect an immediacy in solutions and results to these things that vex me - while they are immediately given to me to strengthen my faith in God, and shape my raggedy character.
I've expected immediacy in the small areas, and now its moved to the larger things, where I am at in life, where we are at with our jobs, with relocating, with family, etc. etc. ect.
God's answer has been "Wait". My response has been "Why?"
Do I think my will is better than God's? My actions and heart attitude say so. . . though I know that He has sovereign plans beyond my imagination. He is not dangling them in front of me either, He has promised that He knows the plans for us, to prosper us.
Last night, Nancy spoke on Grace and Sin as two kingdoms. Tyrannical sin only enslaves its inhabitants, but Grace frees. I have felt enslaved to sin. I have felt cowardly and weak. My joy dried up, my hope gone. I forget that sin has already been overcome, by the power of God's grace, "greater than all my sin". He is reminding me, through all these things, that He is in control. My life is not a chaotic mess, there is a purpose to all this. I just see puzzle pieces. He sees the whole picture.
And The signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to
Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will go through the fire
If You want me to
It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone
So When the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley
If You want me to
When I cross over Jordan,
I'm gonna sing, gonna shout
I'm gonna look into Your eyes and see
You never let me down
So take me on the pathway that will lead me home to You
And I will walk through the valley
If You want me to
Yes, I will walk through the valley
If You want me to
~*~
~Ginny Owens~
7 comments:
Dear Amy,
Did you ever think that your life is a puzzle piece, and that you will never see the entire puzzle till you reach glory? Find joy in being a puzzle piece, or, to use Edith Schaeffer's analogy, a thread in a grand tapestry, of which we see the back side, knots, ugly connections which distort and obscure the picture being formed on the presenting side. Yes, I believe that there is a glorious story being told, and we get a few quotes here and there, and by faith know that the hero wins and we are behind him. For now, jigsaw.
Love,
M2
Do you know how much I love you, M2? :) Thank you
I absolutely love that song. Thanks for the reminder.
Dear Amy,
I am praying that things continue to change for the better. There isn't always a clear reason for our feelings but there is HELP. God!
Know that there are people thinking about you and loving you in Jesus.
Thank you Joyce - you are so sweet to pray for me.
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