Goodness

Sabbath Day ~
My hubby is lying on the floor, reading the comics & nursing his sore back with the heating pad. Poor guy.
I am pleased that last night turned out alright. I tired out a new recipe on our company - chicken/sausage pasta. Turned out pretty well.
I made apple streudel muffins for breakfast and 'golden lasagna' for lunch later.
Yay for being domestic :) I think I might have gone to culinary school in another life. . .
Happy Sunday to you all - its a lovely day to celebrate with God's people!

climbing up

Been quite a while since I posted something. It feels like everything happened over that amount of silent space.

We found a car, a nice '94 Camry LE, with lower miles and a completely rebuilt engine. We bought it from a repair guy who gave us a warranty and service deals at his shop. We handed over the keys to our fogue and drove our new wheels home.

I sent an email to dad recently to update him on how Haven and I were doing. It had been some time since I last wrote to him. This past Monday, he wrote me back, and I feel like he is denying me a relationship with him. He seemed to no longer acknowledge me as his daughter, but told me that he will always love me. I just don't understand. . . I have been accused of his hurt, which stings the most. I know that I am not the one to blame. Its just hard. There was a time for tears on Monday - Tuesday woke brighter. . .
The week is almost over. I am more hopeful now. Life goes on.

Patience

This is not what I am good at, what I lack, what needs to change in me most . . .
This year has been full of lessons for me to learn - it seems it all funnels down to this one thing that I still am struggling with. When will I 'get'it? I think that God sends us things to keep working in our stubborn hearts till we finally understand.
Okay, so I surrender now. I am wholly unable to be patient and trusting on my own sheer will power. My weakness is transformed by Your strength, O Lord.

Please make me patient

Stuffy

Allergies? Can this be the reason my head pounds? Please tell me why aleve is not working yet? Decongestion stuff is what I need - oh, and sleep too.
Today was full of adventures. Out of the ordinary was the the agenda. Mar and I ended up passing the hours at work talking about life as we know it. I spent some time reflecting on a recent letter that I sent to dad too. I am waiting for him to come back from his vacation to read it. . . anticipation makes me twitch . . .

The days are growing warmer here - it is taking the night longer to cool off - can summer already be here?


Well, we didn't buy that accord - I am kind of glad that things went the way they did too - It was a hard day - we worked through a lot of issues that day . . . marriage has its ups and downs, but it is still the best thing ever. . .

Gonna let this wind fly me to the Moon . . .

Breeze, strong, fresh and slightly cool - sweeping the sunset from the sky, but the stars are kept in place by their own tough willpower. . .
Delighted by the evening - dinner was on Chipotle, entertainment provided by Pottery Barn and Whole Earth. Company was with a quite handsome man :)

Tomorrow we are going to trade in the fogue for a '96 accord. I am excited, the time seems very right to do this, and we both feel a peace about it.
Easter comes this Sunday - what a good day it will be, to fellowship with our precious church, and then feast with our dear family afterward. . .

The joy just keeps on coming . . .

sweet

Uncertainty lends itself to fear, and yet, at some point, that fear gives way to the peace that wraps itself around it. Peace strangles fear.

Last night, I laid my head in his lap and we talked about our goals, our new budget with my income, and all the things we wish for this year. All things are possible through Him. I look at what He has already done for us and I cannot be but amazed. Its all Him. From the start of all this & until the end. . .

journey

I am relishing this delightfully cool & soft morning. I just joined the gym, and I feel like I have accomplished something :) Funny, because I have not even worked out there yet!
Last night came to a peaceful resolve. I realized how far I have wandered away from God. I kept running and then I stumbled. He caught me again. I fought, I wrestled, I kicked at His will. He held me fast, He would not let me go. He soothed all these fears, and wrestled me down to my knees.
A renewed joy comes in the morning after nights like these. There is a new hope to begin again, to make changes, to seek God. I am still learning how to live, one baby step at a time.

Bright

~ The sun is hanging high overhead, new day is well underway. Welcome Monday - I am already finished grocery shopping and cleaning for the day. I am almost ready for work, just did my BSF lessons. Discovered a new web radio network, and window shopped through Target's candle collection.
I am happy today - today is payday, today its spring, today I have gotten a lot done, today is bright.

Because I felt like it . . .

"ABC Survey":

A is for age:] 23

[B is for booze of choice:] vanilla vodka & Kahlua (mmmm . . gimme a white russian baby!)

[C is for career:] wifey, future mommy

[D is for your dog's name:] future dog - Duke, black lab

[E is for essential items you use everyday:] perfume, makeup, deoderant, lotion, shampoo, conditioner, hairspray, hair shine spray, toothpaste, etc. .. etc. . .
[F is for favorite song at the moment:] "Landed" - Ben Folds

[G is for favorite games:] Scrabble nerd, checkers, life
Basketball - Spurs fan

[H is for Home town:] scotts valley, california

[I is for instruments you play:] piano

[J is for favorite juice?:] cranberry

[K is for kids?:] 5 or 6 munchkins- Lordwilling

[L is for last hug?:] from the hubby

[M is for marriage:] oh yeah!!!

[N is for the name of your last 3 ex's :] let's see, I gave up counting when Johnny Depp rejected me. . .

[O is for overnight hospital stays:] none

[P is for phobias:] being rejected

[Q is for quote:] "life is what happens when your'e busy making other plans."
[R is for biggest regret:] sheesh

[S is for status:] married

[T is for time you wake up:] when I can't sleep any longer/when my body rebells against me.

[U is for underwear:] yes, I do wear it

[V is for vegetable you love:] cherry tomatoes - I pop 'em like m&m's

[W is for worst habit:] being selfish

[X is for x-rays you've had:] my hip, my left foot

[Y is for yummy food you make:] chicken alfredo, garlic mashed potatoes, chocolate cake, cinnamon rolls, chicken salad.

[Z is for zodiac sign:] cancer - crabby crab, dang it