Over the past three months, I have been sort of keeping a list of the pros/cons, negatives/positives, bright sides/down sides, etc. of H's new position as a site manager.
When we began down this path, it excited both of us. We looked at it like the time when we were looking for a house, and how thrilling it was to finally find one with our name on it. This job had the shine of a new penny, full of great prospects and promise. Over prayer, and over seeking the Lord's wisdom, He confirmed the decision with great peace. And so began the journey, both emotional and physical. This new phase has required a great amount of patience, endurance, and trust that the Lord will bring us together after periods of being apart.
And the Lord has truly been faithful through this different time. Its a time that we didn't plan for really. We didn't really expect to be in places where we are now, but then again, do we ever find ourselves in places we expect? Life would be so extremely boring if we always knew what would happen next. Nothing is as perfect as it sounds either. But such is life here on earth where no person, job, career, or situation ever satisfies the way the Lord can.
And so, let me count the ways the Lord has been good to us, through the good and the hard times that have come with this new phase:
Getting up in the morning and not seeing my husband's
face resting on the pillow next to mine.
Waking up to see my husband's text message on my cell
Not being able to cook dinner every night.
Not having to cook EVERY night
Having to walk the dog all by myself
Hector's better behavior, and the quiet times I
have on those nightly walks
Sundays - missing our sabbath breakfast tradition, our leisurely mornings over the paper and coffee and going to church together
Going to church and being blessed by others, served by others and loved by others
Sleeping in a large bed by myself
Being able to spread out a little bit
Not having man messes to pick up
Not having man messes to pick up
Taking care of the bills, garbage and car maintenance
Developing a greater appreciation for the things
he takes care of when he is home
No Snuggling :(
No Kisses :( :( :(
No Hugs :( :( :( :(
How much I love him and miss him physically - and how
wonderful it is to see him again
When he is down and not being able to be with him
Learning that God is the only one who can truly comfort him
Learning how to be an encouragement across many miles
How God has given us strength to encourage each other
and how that surpasses the distance
Being apart from the man I love so much.
Cards, letters, emails, and long phone conversations
from the man I love so much
There are many other things that I have left off, but I am finding that the pros outnumber the cons. . . everytime I think of something hard or negative, the Lord gives me a reason to thank Him for that thing.
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